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killtheanimals ([personal profile] killtheanimals) wrote2018-07-29 01:49 pm

Post-Game CMO; [community profile] camppetoskey

Vesna Esta Holicia; until you shine again
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07/30/18 - SCP Agent Residences

[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-30 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ The last 48 hours seem like something of a dream. Leaving camp grounds, going to that restaurant at an unthinkable time of night, sleeping very little and then... briefings, initiations, assignment lists... A blur in Boa's mind. Joining the Snake Pit was definitely less paper work. None.

When they finally get a bit of free time, everything is a blur in Boa's head. This is how their new life starts... It's hard to really say how he feels about it. But when he comes into the room that is from now on assigned to be Mitsuru's and gives him a greeting smile, Boa is pretty sure that he has no regrets about his choice. ]


We really leveled up from the cabins...

[ He seats himself on Mitsuru's bed without any hesitation. They've hung out on the same bunk in camp many times before, the change in their relationship can't make this awkward again. ]
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[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-30 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)
No kidding... Even sleeping is weird to me now, we didn't have to on the other end.

[ Which meant very boring and sad nights. Boa wonders if he shouldn't be referencing the camp version of afterlife so casually, but he also knows that not bringing it up would consume him from the inside. It's not easy to forget, that feeling of looking in from the outside, through dozens of eyes. ]

And on top of it all, this is the first time in years that I've had an own room. I didn't rank high enough for one in the Snake Pit.

[ Not that they're ranking high in the organization either, but it seems to overall have a lot more money to spare. Boa isn't complaining, not really, but waking up indoors alone is definitely strange. ]
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[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-30 04:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, unless you were a mask you slept in community bedrooms with the other boys. They were a bit smaller than the cabins, actually.

[ The nice comfortable beanbag space was missing. The Snake Pit had rooms to sleep and not to feel at home in. ]

The lower masks had privilege to oversee the non-ranks like me at training and they got single rooms. The top were the eyes - like Red Eye. I suppose they had larger rooms as well, but I've never been in those. I suppose I would have gotten one of them in the end, but that was when the Eyes were already defeated and we operated outside of the building.

Anyway, this [ he makes a broad gesture to indicate the room ] is pretty luxurious all things considered.
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[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-30 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, that'd be nice.

[ He shrugs a little helplessly. As much as he'd like to brag about being in the Snake Pit top three by now, there is a whole lot of context to it and... well. They should probably be honest with each other and give realistic impressions of their capability. ]

But in reality, you know how I told you when we met that the Snake Pit got infiltrated? Almost all of the high ranking bladers were defeated in this. I was low-rank enough to not even have to fight and... well, afterwards Ashram needed replacements. The ranks were pretty much gone by the time I got into his favor.

Which isn't to say he didn't put me through hell to get Bahamut and gain this status. [ He points to the scar over his nose. ] Or what I thought was hell at the time. I really thought I might die and it didn't even matter to me.
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[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-30 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Mhm. I didn't think there was anything else worthwhile for me out there.

[ That admission is made a bit more quietly. Back in his world, Boa never really considered why he was doing things. He had simply always been pushing ahead at a speed that made it impossible to look behind himself. And wasn't it obvious to want to be the strongest? Wasn't it a goal everyone should have? He'd thought so. He'd thought was all there was to the world. And if he lost, if he died... then it'd just be so. He'd never allowed himself to dwell on it for longer than that. ]

Seems I was wrong. [ He can say this looking Mitsuru in the eyes because Mitsuru is the tangible proof of it. ] I don't think I've ever wanted to keep anything. Even Red Eye... I was obsessed with him. I was chasing after him, seeing only him. But in the end, I wanted to surpass him and leave him behind.

[ Ah, that's a lot of words about Red Eye that just come out faster and faster because he's been thinking about it so much and not really known where to go with these thoughts and feelings. There is no denying that Red Eye is important, there is denying that Red Eye is why he was even alive to come to camp to start with, but... but...

Boa takes a deep breath. ]


I think this is the first time I just want to be side by side with somebody.
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[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-30 10:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[ That catches Boa off-guard and the surprise shows on his face, but he takes a moment to sincerely consider what Mitsuru is saying. But thinking of the early weeks... it's actually somewhat shameful, looking back. ]

... mhm. Maybe. I think... what my body said to you the day... [ No, he can't bring himself to say what day, not now that so many of them aren't here at all, souls taken to an uncertain fate... ] that day...

That wasn't wrong. At the start, I wanted you to be something... different. I wanted to rush after you the same way, I just... I wanted to use you to motivate myself to survive.

[ He feels so dirty about this now, when back then he'd not had any reservations about it. ]

So I couldn't tell at all what was actually happening. I'm sorry.
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cont. suicide cw.

[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-31 12:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ Boa knows he should be surprised. This should be a game-changing confession. This should change everything about how he sees Mitsuru.

And it doesn't.

It's not that he had known, precisely. He hadn't, not this way. Mitsuru's vague admission about considering to simply let himself die in camp was still... different. Still on a level that Boa could relate to. He hadn't considered this outside of camp. No... more than that... even after he knew the source of Mitsuru's desperation, even after they spoke of Aya... he still hadn't really thought about a Mitsuru before magic. It seemed so far past... as far in the past as a Boa before the Snake Pit, a Boa who saw no harm in going there in the first place.

Boa swallows as well. For a moment, he doesn't know what to say. He's not shocked, not disappointed either... It's just heavy. A weight on his chest. ]


Mitsuru...

[ A softly spoken name, just to break the silence. I would have liked to... To a Boa of the past it would be a disappointment. It would take the air out of his lungs and make him question his own will for survival and yet... all he can think is 'so what? what does that even change now?'. ]

You're still the most amazing person I know.

[ It changes nothing. ]

You... I thought I'd never have anything or anyone ever again when I died, but you...

[ His voice fails him, talking about his death, and he just grabs Mitsuru's hands instead. ]
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cont. suicide cw.

[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-31 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ This time there isn't a break before Boa responds because the responds feels like he is simply carrying on a shared train of thought that Mitsuru started. ]

... at least I could try to keep my promise and see you on Monday. At least I could try to keep them from using you. At least you...

[ Isn't it funny how the list goes on and on like that? ]

I'd died, I'd... there was nothing left of everything I wanted for myself, but you... You were alive, you still had a use for me, you were waiting...

[ His voice wavers at that. Why would anybody ever wait for him? Wait for anybody? Fight for yourself, stumble and get left behind... and yet... He'd wait for Mitsuru now, a dozen times over if he had to. Letting him slip through his fingers is the much more terrifying thought.]
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cont. suicide cw.

[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-31 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ It doesn't sound strange to Boa at all. After all, he experienced camp very similarly. Laughing, trying something new, playing for the sake of playing... even the race to win at the Wii had been lighthearted compared to the way he'd been treating his life. And all of that brought them here. Every step they took in summer camp lead up to the warm hands he is holding way too tightly and the close view he has of another boy's eyes...

Camp could be undone. He could die here and he might go back to a world where none of it ever happened. And despite all the horror he'll never forget about, Boa knows he'll never let that happen. ]


You really are incredible...

[ No matter how much he says it, Boa is sure it won't wear out. ]

I don't need any thanks. This is more than enough.

[ Holding on to each other so tightly that he can feel without a shadow of doubt that he's alive. Feeling his heart race in his chest and his mouth go dry as they express emotions that he's never shared with anybody before. He's alive. They made it so. ]
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[personal profile] finalguard 2018-07-31 03:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ How is he ever going to be convinced otherwise when Mitsuru is laughing like this? ]

You won't.

[ The reply has a lot of certainty behind it. The old reasons for thinking so have been pushed into the background by now, replaced by far more irrational and subjective thoughts of value and by the wonder of being cared for against all odds... But that doesn't mean Boa can stop thinking it every time they lock eyes after he came back to live. ]

I trust your judgement on most things, but this... I know I'm right.
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7/7/19

[personal profile] finalguard 2019-07-07 06:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's really hard to believe that the day has begun and there's no dramatic event making itself known on the horizon. Boa has barely slept the night, shaken between what the date means to him versus what it means to Mitsuru. A year... a year since that godawful day of being stoned to death. Boa had gotten up before dawn in the end, giving up on rest and instead channeling his restless energy into productivity.

Productivity means making a birthday cake.

Birthday cake means... it's a cake mix, but there are 13 candles and anyway, he's never really baked before, so IT COUNTS.

Mitsuru will find those lit in the kitchen as soon as he exits his room, because Boa let himself in. ]
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[personal profile] finalguard 2019-07-09 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Happy Birthday.

[ Boa smiles, softly. The groggy surprise is sweet to witness, even though the actual event is more nervewrecking than it has any right to be. Vividly, he remembers the last time he said these words to Mitsuru. The way he'd felt, terrified then and melancholy. Apologetic, too. He has no reason to feel any of these things now, but the memory is something visceral. ]

I'm... gonna give you your actual present in the evening, if that's okay. But cake seemed... safe.

[ Handing over a present before the day is safely over with feels like an omen for disaster. He gave a present last year and he died after. This time there is nothing to be scared of, they're just home but... best avoid the association. ]
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[personal profile] finalguard 2019-07-16 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The hug is permitted and Boa instantly buries his face in Mitsuru's shoulder, soaking in the warm. This too feels dangerously like it is inviting a flashback. One year ago on this exact day he's been clinging to Mitsuru as one of the last things he might have ever done in his life had they been more unlucky that summer.

Now, Mitsuru's hug just feels safe. That's the difference this year has made. Now it is hard to imagine that someone could be able to pull them apart without getting hurt in the process.

For a moment, Boa is quiet as these feelings simply wash over him. Having a person he can always rely on continues to be a little miracle. ]


.... I never made cake before so I guarantee for nothing. I put a lot of effort in though.
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[personal profile] finalguard 2019-07-29 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
I tried not to change anything, but... It's still a first attempt. Even my first attempt at Beyblading wasn't that great, so... Well, you'll just have to find out.

[ The extended hug was nice, but Boa reluctantly lets go. If they waste too much time here then maybe the wax from the candles will drip down too far. Luckily, that's the only part of the day that's on a timer. The door to the apartment is closed (he checked first thing, a weird fit of paranoia so nobody could come drag them without making noise first) and on the other side of the hole in the wall there's just Lance. All is familiar. ]

Though you need to make a wish first.

[ Because that's what birthday candles do, right...? They both had a birthday here already but somehow they never had the time to figure out normal birthday traditions. ]
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[personal profile] finalguard 2019-08-05 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Yeah, it's... it's awkward. But at the same time, that's weirdly why Boa likes the idea of the tradition here. Like breaking some kind of curse associated with wishes, along with breaking the birthday curse. Not that curses are all, which makes this all the more important. Getting rid of irrational fears. ]

I think birthday wishes are pretty... whimsical, usually. It's not like it's real magic.
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[personal profile] finalguard 2019-08-09 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
That seems reasonable. And I mean... we can help make it happen.

[ In case the birthday gods need a little help here. ]

Though that's what we do anyway. [ He smiles a bit himself. ]
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[personal profile] finalguard 2019-08-12 12:41 am (UTC)(link)
[ Wooohoooo!! For a moment Boa just watches the smoke dissipate, but soon the moment is over. So you know what time it now is? KNIFE TIME.

It's probably always somewhat knife time with these two, so maybe this is the most preferable incarnation of it.

Boa carefully cuts out a large piece of the cake for Mitsuru and places it on his plate, still feeling kind of nervous. ]
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[personal profile] finalguard 2019-08-15 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ It is in fact, a perfectly fine cake! Maybe a little bit less sweet than one would expect because Boa could not fathom the amounts of sugar, but still pretty tasty! ]