Post-Game CMO; camppetoskey

[killtheanimals]

Vesna Esta Holicia; until you shine again
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cont. suicide cw.

[finalguard]

[ This time there isn't a break before Boa responds because the responds feels like he is simply carrying on a shared train of thought that Mitsuru started. ]

... at least I could try to keep my promise and see you on Monday. At least I could try to keep them from using you. At least you...

[ Isn't it funny how the list goes on and on like that? ]

I'd died, I'd... there was nothing left of everything I wanted for myself, but you... You were alive, you still had a use for me, you were waiting...

[ His voice wavers at that. Why would anybody ever wait for him? Wait for anybody? Fight for yourself, stumble and get left behind... and yet... He'd wait for Mitsuru now, a dozen times over if he had to. Letting him slip through his fingers is the much more terrifying thought.]

cont. suicide cw.

[killtheanimals]

Boa...

[His own expression crumples, and he leans forward, head pressed up against the other boy's.]

That's not why I tried to save you.

["Usefulness" - it's something he sought in others for so long. But when it came to Boa, it hardly ever occurred to him.

Why was that...?]

You were the only person there I could really consider a friend. Probably... the only person since they died. [His family.]

You understood what we had to do there from the start. [Unlike the others, trying so hard to deny it.] But... besides that...

Being with you was probably the first time I've had fun again. It's... been a really, really long time. [Even as he says it, he knows how weird it is. Of all the places to finally enjoy himself, the middle of a camp where they had to kill each other is just... bizarre.]

...I really could keep thanking you for everything you've done. It'd never end.

cont. suicide cw.

[finalguard]

[ It doesn't sound strange to Boa at all. After all, he experienced camp very similarly. Laughing, trying something new, playing for the sake of playing... even the race to win at the Wii had been lighthearted compared to the way he'd been treating his life. And all of that brought them here. Every step they took in summer camp lead up to the warm hands he is holding way too tightly and the close view he has of another boy's eyes...

Camp could be undone. He could die here and he might go back to a world where none of it ever happened. And despite all the horror he'll never forget about, Boa knows he'll never let that happen. ]

You really are incredible...

[ No matter how much he says it, Boa is sure it won't wear out. ]

I don't need any thanks. This is more than enough.

[ Holding on to each other so tightly that he can feel without a shadow of doubt that he's alive. Feeling his heart race in his chest and his mouth go dry as they express emotions that he's never shared with anybody before. He's alive. They made it so. ]

[killtheanimals]

[The words have him blinking in surprise, only to give a huff of - yes, that's laughter this time. His smile is bittersweet, but it's there.]

...I'm never going to convince you otherwise, am I?

[That he's not that great - that he's really just a kid, a kid who happened to stumble upon an opportunity and blow it.

But there's something special to that, too. That Boa can see all those weaknesses, all those scars, and still say it's "incredible."]

[finalguard]

[ How is he ever going to be convinced otherwise when Mitsuru is laughing like this? ]

You won't.

[ The reply has a lot of certainty behind it. The old reasons for thinking so have been pushed into the background by now, replaced by far more irrational and subjective thoughts of value and by the wonder of being cared for against all odds... But that doesn't mean Boa can stop thinking it every time they lock eyes after he came back to live. ]

I trust your judgement on most things, but this... I know I'm right.