[ That catches Boa off-guard and the surprise shows on his face, but he takes a moment to sincerely consider what Mitsuru is saying. But thinking of the early weeks... it's actually somewhat shameful, looking back. ]

... mhm. Maybe. I think... what my body said to you the day... [ No, he can't bring himself to say what day, not now that so many of them aren't here at all, souls taken to an uncertain fate... ] that day...

That wasn't wrong. At the start, I wanted you to be something... different. I wanted to rush after you the same way, I just... I wanted to use you to motivate myself to survive.

[ He feels so dirty about this now, when back then he'd not had any reservations about it. ]

So I couldn't tell at all what was actually happening. I'm sorry.