Mhm. I didn't think there was anything else worthwhile for me out there.
[ That admission is made a bit more quietly. Back in his world, Boa never really considered why he was doing things. He had simply always been pushing ahead at a speed that made it impossible to look behind himself. And wasn't it obvious to want to be the strongest? Wasn't it a goal everyone should have? He'd thought so. He'd thought was all there was to the world. And if he lost, if he died... then it'd just be so. He'd never allowed himself to dwell on it for longer than that. ]
Seems I was wrong. [ He can say this looking Mitsuru in the eyes because Mitsuru is the tangible proof of it. ] I don't think I've ever wanted to keep anything. Even Red Eye... I was obsessed with him. I was chasing after him, seeing only him. But in the end, I wanted to surpass him and leave him behind.
[ Ah, that's a lot of words about Red Eye that just come out faster and faster because he's been thinking about it so much and not really known where to go with these thoughts and feelings. There is no denying that Red Eye is important, there is denying that Red Eye is why he was even alive to come to camp to start with, but... but...
Boa takes a deep breath. ]
I think this is the first time I just want to be side by side with somebody.
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[ That admission is made a bit more quietly. Back in his world, Boa never really considered why he was doing things. He had simply always been pushing ahead at a speed that made it impossible to look behind himself. And wasn't it obvious to want to be the strongest? Wasn't it a goal everyone should have? He'd thought so. He'd thought was all there was to the world. And if he lost, if he died... then it'd just be so. He'd never allowed himself to dwell on it for longer than that. ]
Seems I was wrong. [ He can say this looking Mitsuru in the eyes because Mitsuru is the tangible proof of it. ] I don't think I've ever wanted to keep anything. Even Red Eye... I was obsessed with him. I was chasing after him, seeing only him. But in the end, I wanted to surpass him and leave him behind.
[ Ah, that's a lot of words about Red Eye that just come out faster and faster because he's been thinking about it so much and not really known where to go with these thoughts and feelings. There is no denying that Red Eye is important, there is denying that Red Eye is why he was even alive to come to camp to start with, but... but...
Boa takes a deep breath. ]
I think this is the first time I just want to be side by side with somebody.