[ And it's mostly the 'screaming at us' part that Boa is worried about, if he's honest with himself. He's not sure he wants to be honest with himself. ]

As much as looking at Wikipedia counts? Yeah. I figured that if I just looked and found out, I'd... stop wondering.

[ It didn't work all that well because of course the results just had to be depressing. Boa supposes it's his own fault for getting curious here. ]

That was almost a year ago, I haven't looked at it again since.

[ And he's never spoken about it before because he never knew how to feel. ]